Staying Positive
I’m sitting here listening to Louise Hay talk about positive thinking and affirmations. I try to listen to her CD whenever I think to. Sometimes I find it soothing. Other times, I find it completely frustrating and exhausting. Why? It’s just a struggle at times. It’s like painting a clown face on when you feel like crying.
And why? Why am I so stressed and fearful? I KNOW things will work out. I KNOW things will be OK. But in the meantime, I just, wow, struggle. Like really really struggle. I want to trust God. I want to feel safe. I want to feel and trust and believe that God will provide for me and keep me safe and bring good things into my life because I am His child. And, yet, the days go by and I have headache after headache. I find myself anxious, tense, tight, angry, and sad.
So, how do I grieve the losses in my life and yet feel serenity, peace, and trust? How do I release the heavy weight I’m carrying about? How do I regain that lightness in my step?
I have to say, I didn’t expect or intend for this blog to be about processing my job loss and the other losses in my life. I didn’t expect to struggle with all of this so much. But, life is funny that way.
